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Since I posted last I have had many thoughts run through my head...so this post maybe randon, so bear with with me...

Last night the youth had a lock-in at the center...that was rather eventful I must say....I used to think that my dream was to marry a youth minister, since that is what I wanted to do since I was in my teens...but I guess it is these kids and the fact that I don't have a relationship with many of them it make it very difficult to enjoy myself...I don't really know...but it might be that I am getting to old for this...(as Mrs. Diane said this morning when she came to pick up her son at 6 am)....who knows...it had its moments..
then Michael Bates (the youth minister in Batesville) gave a devotional talk at midnight last night on "Living as if you were Dying" (like the song by Tim McGraw)...he asked us how we would live life differently if we knew we were dying...well we are dying!?!?!....i really thought about that hard...to be truthfully honest, it brought tears to my eyes because I dont always live as if I was dying...some days I think "oh, I have tomorrow to make things right" well that will not always be the case....this week has been one of those weeks and I am trying to make things right....I want to live as if I was dying...
Wednesday night in devotional we talked about What has encouraged us in our walk with God....a lot of things came to mind...one, being that God will never let me down and he is always there to help when I ask for it...second, my friends that have stood by me when I thought I was in this journey alone, I couldn't have done it without them...I know that we can accomplish this goal together....third, the Bible and prayer that when I pray for Biblicial advice I can open the scripture and read what I need to hear (not always what I want) that is best for me and will help me in my time of need...finally, could be the important, but I don't think that any of them have an order of importance since they are helpful in there own situations...but the opportunity for forgiveness and repentance to leave the past behind...that is not always easy...sometimes I feel that my past is closer to me than I would like....But I am leaving what is behind and straining toward what is ahead...whatever that might be....
The last thing that I have to make a comment about...is why do relationships have to be so complicated? why can two people not decide what they want in a relationship and go for it...there has to be the you decide, no you decide, drama...I am too old for this...I don't date just to be dating anymore...I am dating for the purpose of finding someone to marry and I don't want to waste time dating someone I know I will not marry....I don't really know what I am trying to say here...but if two people are attracted to each other for whatever reason...why does there have to be drama? .....like I said random thoughts...I am stuck on this one and don't know what else to say....
I hope everyone has a happy new year!!!

What now?

Well Christmas has come and gone as I wrote about on Sunday....I went shopping yesterday to spend my Christmas money (looking for sales).....didn't find much but did find a few clothes....I will have some money to buy somethings later as needed....
Now I am back at the center....doing things to get ready for everyone to return...and a few things for myself (like cleaning out drawers...and organizing shelves)....
I must say it has been an interesting couple of days...my mind has been busy thinking about the future...do I want to date or not? or am I content for now? do I want to continue with school, will I graduate when planned? As the new year approaches what could I have done differently the past to make the future better? and the list goes on...so as you can tell my mind has been busy...some of the questions are still to be answered...but I know one answer that I see clearer everyday....my walk with God is not what I want it to be and I can't change my past but I can control my future....there are somethings in the past that if I hadn't done them my future would not be what it is today...but I am learning from those things to make it better...I have learned that I still have weaknesses and I need to avoid those situations or set them up differently to avoid the temptation to fall in the trap again..like Ephesians 6:12 says..."For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the power of ths dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Satan is powerful and scary!
Philippians 4:8-9 says.."Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me--put into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. But I do the things I should I will have peace with God....
Ephesians 6:10-17 I am to take a stand against satan...to stand strong but unmoveable...I want this so much but I know lately I have been moveable....there are days when I feel satan is molding me instead of God...so starting today...i am going to start fresh and new...as Ryan would say I (we) are to die each day...
So Colossians 3:17 says.."And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him." and v.23-24, Whatever you do, work at it will all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving."
So no matter how many times I forgive even if it was not my fault, or have to apologize when it really is my fault...I will be doing everything in the name of the Lord...as the New Years approaches I am not making necessarily making New Years resolutions...but I am going to sincerely try and live each day as if I die to myself and live for God each day...I want to keep this up front in my mind...

I am thankful for the opportunity today to make my life right and for the opportunity each day that is new I have the opportunity to start clean with God...

Well, I survived another Christmas in the Davis household...I got to spend some quality time with my nephew, Davis and I got to talked to my sister, Gena, one on one for a little while and we haven't got to do that in a while.
Santa was good to me...I have lots to be thankful for....
On Christmas eve we opened one gift, watched several episodes of Overhauled and played Trivial Pursuit the 90's Version until 1 am....Christmas morning, we had a devotional and opened presents, then went to my granparents for brunch...Gena and I watched Peter Pan (I took a little nap during it)....while the others hung out in the living room watching Shak vs. Coby....then Ms. Melanie and Brianna jioned us for Christmas dinner...after we were all full we went to granny's for a friendly (yeah right) game of dirty santa with the extended family...then we played a card game called swap before calling it a night....

then the excitement begins...I locked myself out of my room at the center, my cell phone was dead and my gas gage was on below empty....I didn't panic....I drove to Ryan's (thankfully he has to preach tomorrow or I would have been up a creek for a least a little while longer)....I charged my phone enough to use it...he took me to Mrs. Melanie's to get an extra key, so I could get into my room.....after getting the key....we went to smitty's to pick something up and ended up watching Elf and parts of Bettlejuice....so now I am at home safe and sound in my room....the place that I call "home"!

I hope that everyone had a great Christmas and that they were good this year so Santa stopped by for a visit...
I must have been real good...

Today I am thankful for:
all my possessions.....I am so blessed!
my dad and his advice to help me when I need it (even if it is not necessarily what I want to here)
for Davis and his health...he is so happy
Gena and Adam's safe trip to Oxford from Searcy (it was suppose to be a 3 hour trip and turned into a 7 hour trip)


Davis enjoying his new toys
Originally uploaded by gerbdaisies.
Davis is all smiles about his new toys...we had so much fun playing with all of his toys between meals and a few naps...he will also be looking spiffy in his new suit that he got to wear to church...

Davis and I enjoyed opening our gifts on Christmas morning...isn't he cute with his reindeer antlers on...he especially liked the wooden blocks and the water ring that papa gave him...

Wow, it is Christmas Eve already...that means that the year is almost over and much reflection to be done...but that will wait til after Christmas....today for me the chaos begins...the traditions that once were are no longer...times have changed and I am just waiting to see what the future holds. Last night I went the movies with my youngest sister, Carrie...and for those of you who know me know that that is a great accomplishment...we have not been very close and I don't always give her the love and attention she deserves...but we had a great time and agreed to do it agree....so I am seeing a blessing in change...we now have something in common eventhough we are 6 years apart...we are the ones left at home...the Lord has ways of working that I didn't see before....
I am trying to look for the positive and for things to be thankful for....there has been positive things that have happened and I am hoping that I am can continue to see that...(my mom, my dad, carrie and I went to walmart yesterday...that was fun yet interesting...) ...we are having Italian night tonight at my aunts house and that should be real interesting...we are having breakfast with my grandmother and I am excited about that...I love my granny...she is awesome!....my sister, Gena, made it in spite of the snow and ice....so I am hoping for the best...

I wish every one a merry christmas eve!!! enjoy whatever you are doing on this day...I will be trying to seek happiness among chaos...

I have thinking lately about the future...since there is light in the tunnel with my graduation day at the end...I have plans to move and get a job....but right now, there is more growing up at hand....I talked to my dad last monday about our family and how we are growing up and my sisters are starting to have families of their own...so we are having to change the way we do things on holidays..(when you have a big family working around everyone's schedule is not always easy).....this Christmas we have two couples to work around instead of one....so feelings have gotten hurt and there has been a lot of disappointment...why does growing up have to be so hard?..........I think that it is not necessarily the growing up that is hard it is the change or changes that come with it that are difficult....you have to change what once was consistent to an inconstitency and the unknown....I personally don't like change unless I am in control of the change and it was my decision (even then it is not always easy)...so this has been somewhat difficult for me....the thing that I am feeling is the feeling of being left behind..my sisters have moved on and I am still in the same place doing the same things...just like at the center I have been there so long that I have had to make new friends almost every year because so many move on and I am left behind..also leaving behind the familiar (like me past) to be a better person...it is like starting all over again (only in the same place with the same surroundings)...making new friends..deciding that Christianity is a lifetime committment with a lifestyle commitment.....I want to be "the new kid in town" for a lack of better terms.... have decided that growing up is difficult because it is part of life and life is not easy...we don't do things on our terms, but on God's terms...so patience plays a big factor and that is something I am lacking a lot of....
So in all of this I am learning to be patient and wait on God's timing.....I will be "the new kid in town" when that is what He wants for me...for now I have to compromise, accept changes and try to be happy about it regardless if it is what I want....since it is not always about me...as Christians we are to be about others...just like Christ.

Today I am thankful for:
the struggles that I have that make me stronger
the lessons that I learn in life that make me a better person
the Bible that teaches me how to be patient and accept the things I can not change
the time I have to spend with friends and family
being loved by so many
answered prayers

Only 3 more days til Christmas...

The last few days have been kinda of interesting...Saturday we had family pictures made and they turned out great...I was very pleased thanks Tracey...you are awesome...then I went to a wedding and that was really interesting...Sunday I taught Sunday school...I teach 1st and 2nd grade but very smart 1st and 2nd grader I must say...they asked me How does God exist if he doesn't have parents and he wasn't born?....well what would you say to 7 and 8 year olds?....just a thought...then Sunday night we had an imprompto fellowship with the leftovers from the wedding...I am not a person who eats leftovers, so I had a few vegetables....needless to say I was still hungry when I got home...but the night was young...I had to go to Tupelo at 11 o'clock that night to pick up a friend who was coming in for the holidays...so my day ended about 2:30 in the morning...since it is my vacation you would think that I would get to sleep in....not the case for this morning I was going to Memphis with Angie (my adopted mom), my mom, my aunt and my cousin...so I had to be ready to leave by 8:30 Monday morning....we had a great time at the scholastic book warehouse and then had lunch at the cracker barrel...I can home a took a 30 minute nap...so that I would be ready to go see Lemmy Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events...it was a great movie....very different but very enjoyable....I will be reading the rests of the books (since I got the whole series at the book warehouse) if I can apply myself so that I can see what else happens.... today...I plan to get some lst minute shopping done and finish the gifts I am making...that is interesting as well because they are not working out as planned.

Today I am thankful for:
Time to myself to get things done
My adopted parents ....they are awesome!!
My grandparents feeling a little better
Extra money to finish my christmas gifts

Only a few more days til Christmas....

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you seek Me with all your heart. I will be found by you , says the Lord, and I will bring you back from your captivity. Jeremiah 29:11-14


God will not harm us he can only help us! So many times the devil gets a hold on us and we don't even know. Today in worship we talked about the worst terriorist THE DEVIL...we can not destroy him and he doesn't always look bad...but we CAN fight against him...stay strong in the fight against him...


Davis Family 2004
Originally uploaded by gerbdaisies.
Saturday, we were all in town for a wedding to we had our family pictures made. I think that they turned out really well...Davis is all smiles and Nathan is included eventhough he is not officially part of the family (you know with the marriage license and all...that is in April...close enough)...

Today I only have reasons to be thankful....I have prayed a lot about Christmas and how I didn't like the holiday because I couldn't afford to buy any gifts. I was worrying and stressed to the point that I was not enjoying my break. I am thankful for prayer because the Lord heard those prayers and I have been blessed in costless ways. My adopted parents took me out to dinner last night and then we went to their house to hang out...little did I know I would be shower with gifts. They are awesome...not just because of the gifts but because of the thoughts and time that they put into our relationship. Today I was at the center at the right time....I was blessed with another gift. This gift will allow me to buy the gifts I wanted to for my family and allow me to purchase the last minute things to finish the items I am making for friends and family. Even with all of this there has been so much more...I have had friends that send notes of encouragement, give smiles and hugs...just to let me know they care.

I love doing things for the Lord because I know how much Him wants me to be a servant of His and for Him. I have always tried to do everything as if I were doing it for the Lord...like my dad and granddad have taught me....But this Christmas I have truly realize that God will take care of me...If I live for Him I have no worries!!! I have been trying to let go and let God...it can be done...

My advice today is look to those around you who care about you...let them know your struggles .....let them pray with you...and rely on God....He will take care of you no matter what...and one way He does that is through your Christian family...let them be your family...let Him and them help you.

I hope that everyone has a blessed holiday season...be thankful for family and friends and the time that you have with them...rather than worrying about not having any money or any gifts to give.

Holidays???

Today was an interesting day....first off it began with a wierd night of going to bed at 6 am....I couldn't sleep....got up at noon so half my day was shot....so how could it be interesting from that point on.....
I went out to my dad's business to take care of a few things...I got to see my grandparents, my cousins, my uncle and my dad....I had some very interesting conversations with all of them....
I will give you a little background....I worked for my dad as his office manager for 3 1/2 years....I left there about 2 years ago to pursue my degree in graphic design....but every since I left they have requested me to come back....so everytime I visit I get bombarded with questions (all out of love) like when are you coming back, why did you leave, look what happens when you are not here, etc...but sometimes it makes me feel like I let them down and that I need to go back...but right now I feel that that would not be the best decision for me....
Another topic came up about family....I am pretty close to one of my cousins that is here in Oxford and I was telling him that I dont hang around when there is alot of family because I dont like crowds (born into the wrong family) and I don't like drama. There are mixed emotions about relationships that I have with different members of my family....I like spending time with them (but when I want to and who I want...is that self-fish?). I guess the bottom line is I feel like with family they have certain expectations of me...I dont want to face that pressure....when most of the time when I go home it is to get away from drama, work and expectations....high hopes I guess.
I have decided I don't like holidays...Christmas stresses me out...I don't have any money and don't feel right about asking for things I need that are expensive when I know that my parents can not afford it.....Thanksgiving is our big extended family time and things are just not the same as when I was growing up....we have grown our separate ways and it is like we dont have anything in common anymore...( I am one of two in my age range that is not married)....the same goes for most every big holiday that I can think of....

how do I fix these feelings? how I overcome these situations? why do I feel this way?

Today I am thankful for:
My granddad feeling better (he said he prayed harder this week...:) )
My granny her ability to cook for poppy and for always loving me
Relationships with my cousin that I can get advice
My dad giving me money to get my tires balanced
People that love and care about me
Prays answered by God in my best interested even when I don't know exactly what to pray for

Well today officially began Christmas break.. most everyone is gone for now and it is very quiet and lonely. I have been trying to keep myself occupied so that I will not get down about it. I like it to be quiet every now and then but I get sad when the center is completely empty and I know that no one is coming home anytime soon...but I will get adjusted to it after a few days...
I have worked on office things today. So I have gotten caught up on things that I needed to do last week. I plan to do a liitle scrapbooking and extensive cleaning this week..so I will have plenty to do.

Today I am thankful for:
Friends that I have such a wonderful relationship with that I miss them very much when they are gone (even just for a little while)
A car the runs well and gets me from A to B
The opportunity to do mission work this summer, especially doing it with friends
Having help doing the puppet ministry on Sunday nights
My adopted parents who have been so good to me this semester

Well folks...I took my last final today and I am officially on Christmas break...I am so excited! I am little tired right now after a long day, but I don't have any reason to get up in the morning..so hey! Sean, Dave and I went to see Oceans 12 tonight...it was a good movie..it had lots of twists..so you have to watch closely if you go see it. We watched Blade last night and it was good as well....I like action films!!!

Today I am thankful for:
No more tests for at least 5 weeks
the $32 I got for my anthropology book (I hated that class)
the A I got on my graphic design book
friends to go see movies with ( i love watching movies, so it gets lonely when everyone is gone and i have to go see them by myself)
a cell phone that works (right, Sean)
being able to talk to Gena on the phone...Davis is sitting up now..it is hard to believe he is almost 7 months old


TIME TO TAKE A BREAK FROM THINKING AND ENJOY DOING WHAT I LOVE TO DO MOST>>>HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS AND WORK ON ART PROJECTS...like scrapbooking, christmas gifts, etc.

Well I took my accounting test today.... we will see when the results come back if I need to add it to my spring schedule...
I finished my painting and it is ready to turn in...so here goes nothing. One more test at noon and it will all be over.....in the words of Casey...the end is near..

Tonight in devo we reflected on this semester with the expectations, let downs and the unexpected. I realized this semester that is doesn't hurt to ask. What is the worst thing could happen...you could get a "no" and that would be what you thought you were going to get before asking...so now you just know for sure. An example...I asked my accounting teacher if I could take my tests at a different time then the schedule time on Wednesday nights at 7. She was very willing to help me and I was able to take my tests at an earlier time...so I didn't miss Bible study. Also I talked to her about my grades and she was willing to help me if I put forth the effort. Communication with your professors is a good idea...you know the whole going the extra mile thing...it is a good idea believe it or not. Also I have learned how to be more thankful...it doesn't always have to be something big...so remember the little things too...it puts things in better perspective. I am going to look back on this semester and say this was a learning experience! I have learned a lot...I have had some hard times....and some good times! I am going to learn from the bad and remember the good!

Today I am thankful for:
Good friendships that last through hard times
For my dad who sends me emails when I am feeling blue (he knows just what to say)
A new day to start fresh everyday..
Ms. Melanie cooking dinner for us every week...even when it was not easiest thing to do (chicken and chocolate)
A break from school
Surviving another semester...


GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME.....ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD!!

Well tomorrow is the big day..I take my accounting test. I have decided that I am going to just go and take it and do the best I can. Some how it will all work out in the long run. Tonight was a lot of fun at late night breakfast...I found that Sean is a pro at cookin bacon (right, sean) and that the guys overall are a big help. It is not usual that you see a lot of guys in the kitchen (especially willingly) but around the UCSC that is common thing. To which I am thankful...thanks guys...I couldn't have done it without you. By the way, where was Dave?..oh yeah...he is the taste tester!
After tomorrow it is all down hill...I have a painting to finish and a little anthropology to look over...but it is all good.. I am already looking forward to Friday...it will all be over!

Today I am thankful for:
Friends that can show up at the right time...to lead a smile.
James for being in good humor about the scavenger hunt..I hope you had fun :)
A good turn out for late night breakfast...thanks to everyone who stayed..
My parents loving me whether or not I get a C in accounting or not
People helping me around the center when I am studying and can't get to everything
My uncle getting to go home from the hospital
Being able to go out to eat with friends (welcome to Moe's)
Being able to talk to my sister, Gena on the phone and hear how Davis doing
The Lord always coming through when the budget is tight and sometimes I think I am not going to be able to get paid
My computer so that I can talk to Bryan on Instant messenger all the time...thanks for listening Bryan..
Friends that encourage me in my school struggles...even when I am hard to deal with.

Most of all I am thankful for today and for the opportunity to make things right with God.




Well I finished my book...believe it or not...before it was due. I was not as happy with it as I would have liked, but I think that will come with practice and experience with the software. I will have time during the Christmas break to play with the software and learn more about it before I take graphic design 2.
I have my accounting test on Thursday at noon and I plan to begin studying tonight and continue all day tomorrow...I need a B on the test in order to get a C in the class. I need prayers!!! I am going to try my best...so we will see...the best is all I can give.
Besides , in the words of my soon to be brother-in-law, I need to be more ready to go Home (heaven) than ready to take finals! Heaven/ Judgement Day is the only final that counts....Am I ready for it?

This weekend is not as exciting as normal weekend, due to upcoming finals. I have a children's book to finish and a painting to do on top of 2 finals one in anthropology and ACCOUNTING... I am not looking forward to either, but accounting is really going to be tough. However, due to the exam being scheduled during Wednesday night Bible class I asked to take it at a different time, so I will take the exam on Thursday instead Wednesday...which gives me an extra day to study...which is desperately needed!
I went to Memphis today...to watch Sean in the half-marathon to benefit St. Jude's. It was a lot fun...eventhough I had to get up at 4:30 in the am. Mullet made a few new friends while we were watching the race...he is such a friendly lion. We took a nap on the bench at Peabody Place while Dave played games on his phone...while we waited on Sean to finish the race (since we couldn't keep up with him). We all had lots of fun...including Sean with his back injury..congrats! on your accomplishment, my friend!
Tonight is going to be productive..workin on my book.

The semester has almost come to an end!!

Today was filled with meetings and last minute details with classes. I finished my Tuesday, Thursday classes for the semester...I have one more class this week and then it is off to finals. (which a dread)
I have to being studying for my accounting final..since I found out today that I have to make an A to get a C in the class...needless to say I am not happy with the way things are turning out due to the fact I don't have time to take this class again.
It is finally winter (I think)...it was very cold walking to class this morning...but it gave me something to be thankful for and that is that I have a warm place to come home to and a coat that keeps me warm.
Well it is almost the weekend and I hope to have more exciting things to say after today...did I say tomorrow is FRIDAY!!

During Wednesday night small group...one of our group members said something that really made me think...she is a school teacher and has to deal with negative attitudes from other teachers around her. She wanted to have control in her classroom, but last year was her first year to teach and she wasn't quite sure how to go about it..so she took the advice of someone..who told her not to smile til Christmas...be tough and strict that is the only way it would work...so she tried it that way and was miserable for her whole first year of teaching. This year she tried something new..she said I am a happy person and I have a lot to share..so I am going to welcome every student into my classroom with the attitude that it is a place a joy...she said that this year has been so much better. She has so much hope to share and when her kids can come to her class and feel that there is a sense of happiness and joy, they will be more apt to learn and enjoy being in her classroom.
I didn't realize what a great difference that looking at life as I have a lot to offer and that I am so blessed with a great sense of hope. I have a hope that not a lot of people have...why can I not have the attitude of pure joy and want to share it with those around me. Why can't I see everyday as a reason to be thankful? Why can't I give hope to those around me? Just a few thoughts I am having... I think part of my problem is that I have a lack of hope in my life. I look at things from a negative stand point than a positive one. I find myself doing so much better when I focus on the positive but somewhere along the way I lose that focus and I am right back where I started.
I told my mom today that I am feeling like I felt the semester when I flunked out of school a few years ago. I want to crawl in a hole and never come out. I am thankful for Sean and Dave who have kept me from doing that...if it wasn't for them I don't think I could have made it through the semester. There have been others that have prayed for me and thought of me often and I am thankful for that...I think that is when my sense of hope comes back...God is always there for me and that is especially evident when I have friends like I do. Thanks guys!! you are awesome...I love you very much.

If you have a faith as small as a mustard seed NOTHING will be IMPOSSIBLE for you. Matthew 17:20

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